I have never felt more alone in my life.
Is it true that people just love to leave me, stop talking with me and when i try to get a answer they don’t answer?
What did I do wrong?
I have been there when you was down. I have try to help you.
But when I fell, noone came to me. No one.
Im still falling, Im trying to live on, but it hurts because I can’t talk to anyone.
I will never try to hurt myself, because everyone else is doing such a good job already.
So every night I cry to sleep, I cry when none is looking, and I have stopped care about school because I feel like it made me happy but everything hunts me down and I puke of deppression.
My doctor is trying to help me when I can’t even find a place to feel safe then its to far gone.
So who is still left in my life?
Because I don’t know it anymore.
Would someone even miss me?
Happy valentines day every follower, I hope you have a great day even if you are alone like me.
Find your own calm place.
My doctor wanted me to do that last friday. I started to cry and had a panic attack because how much I tried to find a calm place I couldn’t get calm.
So she said we can fix one. The whole visit ended with the feeling that I can never get my calm place fixed. I still feel scared as hell when I try to find one and the tears are near when I talk about it or think.
Well, lets hope one day my brain will get fixed.
MLP OC Paranormal Ocean “Ocea”
I sometimes hear them, when they want me to find them. Do you believe in the unseen like I do?
Edit: wow.. I forgot to fix the horn.. xD
Im a sick cuttlefish.
The last two weeks I have been taking medicine for my lungs and two times I had fever.. the second time is right now. High fever and can’t sleep and no energy. So I spend most of my days sleeping.
If the fever is not gone until monday Im going to the hospital. Well, I really hope that is not more than the flu or something. But two weeks of feeling sick everyday is kinda depressing.
So yeah. Im sorry if I reblog to much, didn’t mean to it. Im trying to keep it down. Well. If you have anything to say tell me.. Im kinda bored right now because I can’t leave my room.
What I made yesterday before I went to sleep. Going to work on a big project from now on that a friend wants so let see when I get time over to start take request again. :)
Vildvittra with big boobs! Another request!
Next request was Fluttershy! :D
Friend wanted yuri NSFW picture.. Well here it is.. No colours yet.. Maybe tomorrow they get some colors on their cheeks… ;D
Im sick at the moment but realise one thing. Im happy to all the things that happens in my life. I love almost everyone in my class, they make me smile and Im gonna miss when this end. <3